sooo what has been going on lately

well it has been some time since i wrote in my blog. but i fealt tht i needed to. left has been extremely hectic. sadly i honestly can say i have lost faith in just about any and everything. the storms of life has preceeded to weigh me down futher and further. i do understand that it is up to me to weather the storms and survive so that i reach my goal. but emotionally i am drained. the promise that if i lost at least 50 lbs i would have a drastic drop in alot of my meds, and fibro would get better . was alet down. along with the fact that now i have severe tailbone pain coccydynea and raynaud phenomenon  to very painful new conditions to live with. the emotional toal it takes to do all this alone when you know ur heart loves your husband kills you. it breaks your heart. i fight each day to no just up and walk away. i just want all the obstacles that are standing in his wa y of returngin back home to us to be removed. honestly i do ont know what i can handle much more of. honestly i just done. life is to shot to suffer this much. idk what to do.

wls is hard an its even harder when u have to do it alone. but i can not say that to anyone. cause everyone has problems..an struggles so i am told to just get over it. so for me. i wonder at times..if the reason i am failing is to show others that even a smart one can just give up. when there is no one supporting her. cyber friends are wonderful. but honestly what is there to do when u log off ur computer ou are still alone. no one is there . no one to say hey go for a walk with me. nothing. everyone has a life. so this is my blog..an honestly i just dont know what to do anymore..honestly i can not take anymore

UNSEEN THINGS

the world is filled with tons of unseen things. some believe those things exist some do not. but each person is allowed there opinion. the best part of being a witch, and being wiccan as well as being on this weight loss journey is that there are always unseen things happening or fluttering around.
in the mythical world there are tons of unseen creatures. an each day they aid people in what is needed. they help the birds sing, create the morning dew. and nudge you at just the right time to wake you up. animals tend to see them. and small children. hence what society loves to refer to as imaginary friends. indigo children both young as well as children that have grown to adult an never loss there faith in it..tend to see them. it makes our world so wonderful.
in weight loss journey we have what is called NSV. non scale victories. its were you can not see it on the scale but you feel it or something still lets you know you are losing weight. like walking up stairs easier, getting up from a chair with out help, or something as simple as you just feel better.
i personally have faith in the unseen. my belief is that just cause you can not see it. does not mean it does not exist. cause you can not see air, you can not see wind, you can not see atoms, you can not see faith, love, sorrow, etc. but no one truly argues that air exist. so my small blog today is that you gotta remember that a little faith in the unseen goes along way.
:)..may the goddess and god walk with you.