Becareful what you write ...words can hurt people

I say this and a say this bluntly please be careful what you write...cause words can hurt with out your intention. you may think that by not naming names, not mentioning anyone in your venting or ranting then you are safe from hurting someone. and the karma of feeling the pain. but sadly you may still hurt someone.
I removed a blog just now not because i hurt the person it was about. but because the goddess has a way of showing you just how screwed up hurting someone can be. I logged back on FB after gaming for awhile an seen someone i respect greatly who I hate to see mistreated in anyway. very upset. targeted again. virtual world hate again. i seen what someone being mistreated by the anger or judgement of someone else can do to someone. it hurt me. it shook me to my core. i thought of how the person I actually did write the blog about would feel if they knew my venting was about them. I thought about my friends. the people that do have access to my blog and how many of them could misunderstand and or assume that it was about them. and I just could not bare the thought of one of them ever feeling that pain. I know people say that you can not feel through the net. yeah i get that. but when you follow someones life. and that person touches you by how honest and kind, and open they are about everything in there life. it breaks your heart to see them so angry, so hurt by another person's words. and you start to feel helpless cause you can not help them at all. you can't make it better. but I knew that even if  I could not not make there personal situation better, I could make sure I did not cause anyone else to go through that same type of emotions. I honestly had no right to judge anyone. Me calling someone a fake cause they don't share exactly the trueful story. isn't my place. i am not there judge. and i became a hypocrite. an that is wrong. an for me to rant about it. yes i vented..but there is a difference between blogging an attention seeking. and honestly I need to admit that I think I seeked attention by pointing out there wrong doings. and for that i hope the goddess will forgive me.
But mainly i removed the post...i can not be a judge to someone else, i am not the goddess, and maybe they have there own reasons for doing what they do. i don't live there lives. goddess forgive me..

I think its time to finally put this blog to rest...at least the weight loss surgery part of it....and bring it back to the wiccan only part of it. 

How can someone know what is going on with you if you don't let them know?

So i felt like finally dusting off my blog and writing again. finally was led by the goddess to express myself. So with that this one is about "Who I am"  lately i keep reading peoples' statuses and tweets were they are blasting there friends about how they do not know them. how they never understand them. and it got me to thinking. seriously what is up with that. why are you blaming your friends for your own failure. and i ask that in that way because it is your own failure in away not just thiers.  you as a human being have a responsibility to not only know who you are as a person. but also you have a responsibility to people that you refer to as love ones, family, friends, lovers. to make sure they know just who you are too. You can not only call someone or message/tweet/text/email someone when you are having a bad day. you must share the good too.
Now you may ask..Dixie who the hell are you to say I am a failure.  I seen your tweets, I seen your status you do the same thing sometimes. Well this is true up until very recently. you see recently I had to learn this lesson myself. you see I kept wondering why a friend of mine was pulling further and further way. always said they were busy, to busy to even call, or inbox, text etc. but then i would see tons of stuff of them having amazing life. then it finally hit me. I HAD NOT BEEN A GOOD FRIEND. I HAD BEEN THE FAILURE NOT THEM. I WAS A LOSER.  I became saddened cause i was like how could they not know I needed them, how could they not comment or tweet me supporting me or showing me that they are proud of how far I have come. Then it truly hit home...duh Dixie how would they know it was real or just a fake wall being put up for others. if all they ever knew was my negative stuff. how would they know if I never shared the good things and only shared when i needed something.
So yes I learned the lesson, you can not truly stand on a soapbox about this type of issue, if you have not faced it and come to terms with it yourself. I refer to myself as a phoenix but after all this learning i also know i got Pegasus tendencies. i will walk amongst the world unseen and fly high upon the sky and only those with truly open eyes can see the magic in who i am. so blessed be