Focus on the things you CAN actually change not what society says rant about!!!

I am so done with all this drama on FB and in the world. my health depletes every single day. Each day I wonder if this the day my heart will give out. is this the day I will have so much stress that I trigger a stress seizure at the wrong time and hit my head and end it all. I wonder each day if I have the inner strength to fight not taking my life each and every day cause not a single damn friend checks on me, calls, visits or anything. I wonder will I survive all the shit with Dragon. 
but each day I watch on social media as each day my wall is a damn battlefield. were people pick and choose the shit they want to rant over. one week its leave the statues alone or destroy them. it's not heritage its a desire to bring slavery back, keep racism or hate (says one group) or no its heritage and not hate and we don't want our flag or us lumped together with those Nazis and KKK members. The next week its, all lives matters versus black lives matter. all while each and everyday people neglect to point out actual real violence going on in the cities each second of every day. people not liking the verdict of something so damn 10 mins of fame on tv by destroying their own city. destroying peoples businesses. oh wait..oh look north Korea actually tested a hydrogen bomb and another rocket that could reach Guam...but no one shows concern for that shit.. hell Nah..nothing about that being important.. its I hate the prez, or I like the prez.. then bam... each day its your antichrist or your I love christ.. but suddenly fire and brimstone so to speak floods the earth..literally floods the earth and rips apart several states and islands. places are left with no electric. Entire islands are no uninhabitable. people lose their families their homes.. hurricane after the hurricane is hitting. but no one notices that the news has actually played watch me pull a rabbit out my hat. 
seriously while people should be trying to help hurricane victims, or at least discussing the fact that P.Rico is now dang near lost.. and how we as a country can help all these destroyed places. what has to happen? 
Facebook lights up again. aww hell... people on the warpath cause someone didn't' stand.let me see... why is no one telling every single person in every bar, home, etc..that when the national anthem is played they are anti-country if they don't stand. so when all those people watching the game in their home don't stand and in bars don't go silent or stand why the hell is no one calling them a son of bitches. oh  wait..cause, that is normal. 
so focus people. you don't like what I say..move on.. shut the fuck up..get over it.. my page. 
but seriously.. focus on the shit killing your own city or county..drugs, gangs, murder.. we got a dude now that his mother is still begging for an answer on why he was killed in his trailer and no one has been found. Jay Shifflet has passed on and no one ever has been charged. oh wait..but we still focusing on someone kneeling. shut the hell up. how about the girls getting raped. The children being abused or molested in your own town or city. how about all the abuse victims that are currently staying at the domestic violence shelters in your area or the homeless in your area that is going without food to eat tonight.

damn it people ..focus.. what the hell is wrong with yawl. I get it..yay it plays ..its respect..but damn you want to rant..rant and make a stand for something you can change in your own town. you are not gonna get a single athlete to stand up or change prez from calling a nazi a find gentlemen and an athlete a son of a bitch. so get a clue. fight for the shit in your own city and town that needs your voice. 

I can't tell you what to do and expect you to do it. But I hope that I can give you food for thought and give a light to the stuff in our own areas that still need fighting for. such as answers to unsolved murder cases, stopping the drugs from reaching our kids and our friends and family. Stopping and or preventing domestic violence. And doing what we can to help someone in need that may not have the strength or courage to ask for help due to embarrassment or fear. 

And seriously that fear of embarrassment may actually come from what they see on these facebook walls. Just a thought everyone.

Take Stock Of Your Life And Fix Things For Yourself Not Others

Have you ever sat and truly thought about your actions as an adult versus the actions we tell our children to have. Have you ever truly sat, and reflected on your own behavior, your own words, emotions and public displays you show others. That your children see. Then considered the words that come out of your mouth towards your kids when raising them. Most of us teach our children not to follow the heard. Not to beg others to be their friends. We actually say things like "sweety, if they can't see the good in you, then they are not worth your friendship anyway". So many times we have heald and wiped our children's tears, or hugged them after someone has bullied them or broken their hearts. Or even after someone who portrayed themselves as their friends and gotten close enough to feel to them like family. Just dropped them. Most of us but not all of us, usually go as far as to help pull back the reigns on our children as we watch them go into total meltdowns, and they try to beg, claw, and pretty much do anything they can to force their way back into someone that truly was clearly not willing to make the effort to be a good friend.
As adults, we don't take our own advice. Which is truly sad. We keep coffins and urns of already dead friendships and relationships that are just half there. they are not connected or tethered to the other person anymore. You are the only one that still has it tied/tethered to you. You allow the memories that once was, or even what you hoped the making of a new friendship and the creation of hope to happen memories to make you fight for people that have already let you go. Sometimes you must stop and evaluate yourself. Love yourself enough to truly work on you for you. Know that people will be in your life and be active and present in the now in your life if they truly consider you a friend or a value in their life.
Let me say that again so you get it!!!
PEOPLE WILL BE IN YOUR LIFE AND BE ACTIVE AND PRESENT IN THE NOW IN YOUR LIFE. IF THEY TRULY CONSIDER YOU A FRIEND AND OR A VALUE IN THEIR LIFE.

Did you get that this time? When you go to claw at that dead or on life support relationship. Ask yourself something. How come they have time to give effort to everyone else. To take a moment out of their day to facetime, text, IM, call or whatever so many others. Yet they can not call, text, IM, or even click like on a single comment status or anything of yours. I WILL GIVE YOU A SECOND TO LET THAT MARINATE! OK GOT THE ANSWER? DING! LIGHT BULB! O.K. So now that you see it, and yes it hurts like hell, It hurts like a full body Brazilian wax followed by a charcoal facial peel max being slowly peeled off your face. and having your eyebrows plucked for good measure. then slapped on the ass and told you been charged 300 bucks for the service. "ouch"
So yes it hurts, but guess what. You got clarity now don't you? So when you are talking to your kids you have that passion and you want them to do what is right. But when you look at yourself in the mirror, can you say you are doing what is right for you. Can you say you are doing what is healthy for your inner being as well as your outer being? Fix yourself and your happiness not for me, not for your kids. But for yourself.  Cause the day you can tell your story of the way you once was without shedding a tear. Is the moment you are healed. The day you can wake up and you don't rush to social media to see if anyone reached out to you that you are clawing to, you are healed. The day you just wake up and know that you are doing life for you not to fill a void, or to hold on to memories or dreams of what can me. Then you have fixed you for you.
Trust me that is all I want for anyone in this world. No matter who they are.

Goddess guided me to write this, I am working on me for me. May you find your way to do so too.
blessed be.

What is Mercury Retrograde

This info was shared via About.com 

want to give a big thank you to Molly Hall who wrote this guide. 

Mercury Retrograde

By Molly Hall, About.com Guide

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What is Mercury Retrograde?:
This happens three to four times per year, when the planetMercury1 slows down and appears to stop (station) and move backward (retrograde). It's an optical illusion, since there is forward movement, like speeding by a slow-moving train -- as it recedes, it appears to go backward.
I saw this on a road trip, driving alongside a moving train going slower than my little white Subaru -- it really does play tricks with your mind!
While delays and misunderstandings do seem to happen, I've noticed a magical trend -- that people and ideas return, for integration, resolution and more.

Mercury Madness?:
Mercury is the messenger, and in this time, the delivery is warped or the message gets lost en route. Some people find that their computers go on the fritz or phone lines go down. If you're at all jittery about it, go ahead and back up your important files.
There can be delays, so give yourself plenty of time to get places. What happens in those down times? Mercury retro is known to be a time of 'fated' events -- who will you meet? What will be revealed?
A Time-Out:
Mercury retrograde gives us time to catch up with ourselves and reflect. Something from the past returns in a different form. People, ideas or buried insights that are keys to moving forward, float to the surface. Often it's felt as a slowed down, contemplative time, and depending on the sign, a chance to go over old ground again, to claim what you missed the first time.
Err on Side of Caution:
There's a long-held belief that it's best to avoid making set plans during the Mercury Retrograde. This means holding off on signing contracts and forming partnerships and alliances. What gets put in writing at this time may turn out to need serious revising after Mercury goes direct. But since tying up loose ends is the domain of retrograde, this type of finalization might fly.
Can you repeat that?:
In our relationships, sometimes we gloss over things that pushed buttons at the time, but which we let slide. What seemed not worth the trouble may reveal itself as a major issue in need of our attention. The Mercury retrograde is a time for review when the underlying patterns come to light.
Back to the Drawing Board:
Some dreams and goals get lost in the hectic rushing around of daily life. The Mercury Retrograde period can be a rich time of reflection on those longings. This makes it a time for the soul to ponder its destiny. You might look over old journals, review your creative work, muse on serendipities of the past that have pointed you toward your spirit's calling. It can make the retrograde period a time of solidifying a sense of your personal story and where you're headed.
What does it mean in each different sign?:
The Mercury retrograde is shaped by the sign through which it is cast. For example, a Mercury retrograde in Cancer turns the mind toward things like family, home and the invisible emotional bonds that connect us. On the other hand, a Mercury retrograde in Aquarius gives it a different spin, with a review of group dynamics, the larger human community, all from a detached perspective.
Making the Most of Mercury Retrograde:
A major cause of stress at Mercury retrograde is frustration from mishaps, things breaking down, computers going black. But if we know it's cycling, this makes it feel less terminal. If things go pear-shaped, see what's there to see. Take a break from the usual routine.
Just observe and see what happens, and be open to the past returning for review. If it's coming back, there's likely something more to learn or release from it. This can be a good (and productive) time, in its own way.

The 3rd Retrograde of Mercury is upon us. 3rd of 4th of 2016

Mercury Retrograde – Aug. 30-Sept. 21/22, 2016

Mercury Retrograde

Get all possible appointments and repairs made and completed before August 30th, or get them scheduled before August 30th for after September 22nd. (Also stay aware of not scheduling during or for a date and time we’re in a Void or Course Moon.)  The next Mercury Retrograde cycle begins August 30, 2016 (6:04a PT/9:04a ET). It ends September 21 at 10:31p for the West Coast and on September 22 at 1:31a for the East Coast. 

IN GENERAL

Many of you know the drill: Count on greater misunderstandings, as all communications are more likely to suffer; expect delays and/or undelivered mail or messages. EXPECT to write and rewrite in the present and WISH to rewrite the past. Always get repairs done of any kind before Mercury Retrograde begins or wait until it ends.

Emergencies excepted, Mercury Retrograde is definitely NOT the time to start a new relationship, a new job, or long-term project — let alone a new career; it is not the time enter into binding commitments (marriage, financial, or otherwise) without the absolute expectation of necessary modifications, alternative compromises and/or reversals in the original plan and/or intent. Unless it’s an emergency, it is generally not a good idea make or go to medical appointments during Mercury Retrograde.

Interpersonally, communications at all levels are problematic, and we are inclined to think slower – process communications slower! We have to be patient with each other and ourselves. Expect computer issues – not the least of which will likely include slower connections (also MUST back-up data).

EXPECT misleading information — if not deception (especially with Neptune in Pisces); EXPECT missed appointments, traffic problems, the failure to keep one’s word because of a promise that could not be kept; misplaced documents, more compute-related problems.

Any Mercury Retrograde cycle is THE time to re-think, re-do, re-define, re-organize, re-assess, re-orient, and/or re-plan without taking action on the “new plan” until after Mercury Retrograde ends. It is the time for completions; i.e., cleaning up paperwork, paying old debts, doing what we’ve promised that hasn’t been completed OR otherwise handling those matters responsibly.

It is not the time for repairs to machinery or automobiles in particular; chances are, repairs have to be made to the repair! It IS the time to chill – to *think* more than we expand our activities; plan what to change and how to move forward after Mercury Retrograde ends. Think of it as an *opportunity* that comes around 3 or occasionally 4 times in a year.

NO ONE escapes the discomfort of Mercury Retrograde — wherever we have Gemini or Virgo in our natal charts, we are going to experience the effects of any Mercury Retrograde cycle.

Mercury “rules” those individuals with a Gemini or Virgo Sun. Those with a Gemini Sun, Moon, or Ascendant, will, most likely, be in the uncomfortable position of having to re-think exactly where they are most comfortable; i.e., easy, adaptable communications suitable for the moment. On the other hand, for the Gemini who is aware of Mercury Retrograde, the opportunity exists to clarify communications — being so precise there is little room for misunderstanding.

Virgo Sun, Moon, or Virgo ascendant, will likely experience the usual difficulties presented by a Mercury Retrograde cycle; however, their main opportunity is to analyze how they may be the carping critic and unnecessarily complicating matters for everyone with whom they are in contact. The main issue will likely be analyzing everything to death with slower reasoning powers, so all the analyzing actually gets in their way. Other issues may be intolerance for disorder or totally rationalizing a double standard they might be using to manipulate a situation.

Mercury will be retrograde in one zodiacal sign or the other, and those whose Sun, Mercury, Moon, or Ascendant in that sign will be seriously affected by the Mercury Retrograde cycle of the sign.

To reiterate, during any Mercury Retrograde cycle, one should not enter into any binding agreements or life-altering commitments. Commitments made during a Mercury Retrograde cycle are most often commitments not kept. Where agreements cannot be avoided, there should be an expectation of having to modify the agreement at some point during its term. The signing of any important document should either be put on hold or signed with the knowledge that it will likely have to be changed in some way.

We are all being forced to loosen our grip on one or more situations in order to prepare for what is coming. The first half of Mercury Retrograde is the time for the greatest reflection and introspection.

During the second half of Mercury Retrograde, people will be especially inclined to just get on with business/life as usual — foolishly so. Added tension stems from a new perspective and the added awareness that we are literally blocked from doing what we feel ready to DO to the fullest extent. What we SHOULD focus on is physical, mental, spiritual, and emotional well-being, as well as plans for greater fulfillment in our lives after the cycle ends.

REMEMBER: Sleep deprivation during Mercury Retrograde causes extreme confusion, inflexibility, and general difficulty staying in reality-based thought. When we feel the least bit sleepy it is EXTREMELY IMPORTANT, not to mention — refreshing — to STOP what we are doing, and close our eyes just long enough to allow the sleepiness to subside. It can be as little as 2-5 minutes.

REMEMBER ALSO: During ANY Mercury Retrograde cycle, most folks are inclined to think/process information slower — just “BE” with that, and USE it for deeper thinking about any subject, issue, or idea. Be patient with each other.

Mercury Retrograde also affects all modes of travel and all modes of communication. It is definitely not a good time for travel (and we should do so ONLY when our Personal Energy Influences to show positive indications). EXPECT greater stress in any event.

Also, it is no secret that when people use cell phones to talk or text while driving, the distraction can have disastrous consequences.  Especially during Mercury Retrograde, the hazard is multiplied when those who use them are so busy talking (not to mention texting) they go through red lights or don’t stop for pedestrians on a busy street, or even see animals (and animals can’t think). People are supposed to be able to think, but thinking is more often impaired during Mercury Retrograde, and, when using a cell phone one’s thinking may not be sharp enough to negotiate both the situation on the road and the telephone interaction.

Whether we are pedestrians or behind the wheel of a vehicle – it will pay dividends to take an extra 10 seconds for a second and third look before leaving a GREEN light!!!

all info shared came from http://moonlinks.net/planets/mercury-retrograde/

We are DISABLED AND SPECIAL NEEDS HUMAN-BEINGS not TOYS from the ISLAND of MISFIT TOYS

WE ARE DISABLED AND SPECIAL NEEDS HUMAN BEINGS NOT MISFIT TOYS !!!

As I lay here, unable to sleep, head full of worries and stress. awaiting some important choices of the morning. I do what I normally do to gather my thoughts and keep myself calm. I flip through blogs, wall feeds etc on social media. This morning something really got at my craw. I started to notice something about some of the feel good stories I was coming across. Some that I even have shared. There is a pattern to some of them. When they are being written by news outlets, and really important highly well-known social media people. They are referring to the person with the disability as less than >>fill in the blank. and always stating that whoever does blank action towards them that has earned this story to be written is a hero. like guys or girls more popular , or non-disabled taking a disabled or special needs person to a prom, formal, or throwing them a surprise birthday party after learning they never had one. suddenly the story is not written about how amazing the disabled or special need person is. how the wonderful and beautiful soul that disabled or special needs person is. but instead, it always seems to give this amazing credit to the other person for their actions. they are called heroes. no offense don't get me wrong I appreciate as a mother of a special needs child. and as a disabled person. I appreciate these people's actions. but are they not just being decent human beings. like society should be. should not all human beings treat all others like human beings instead of misfit toys?  when did it become acceptable for news outlets and papers, and social media to refer to us disabled people and our special needs kids and less than anything other than amazing kids. they are not less than the next kid. I don't care if they are in a wheelchair or can run. can talk or not. they are not less than the jock, the singer, the dancer or the actor or anyone else in this world. a soul has greatness in it. it does not base its definition of being a good soul on popularity it bases it on your behavior. and sorry but how can someone say oh that guy or girl that took that special needs kid to the prom or to the after graduation party is a hero because little Susie or little Johny is less than average in all departments. really. I mean come on really.
so ask yourself this...when did it become ok to say disabled and special needs people are misfit toys. when did it become ok to treat them like they were? celebrate that someone acts like a human being and was brought up right. but don't in the process downgrade and talk about the other person like they are worthless prior to that person coming into their life.

because just a little side note. each day I wake up and my son wakes up. we bless the world with a few things. more laughter, more smiles and a chance to cross paths with two people that will do anything to cheer you up even when we are down. that doesn't sound like misfit toys to me.

Allow me to speak on Trust, Respect, and Friendship

THIS IS WHAT TRUST MEANS

Truthfulness to those who confide in you

 Respect the privacy of those that confide in you

 Understand that breaking a trust is betrayal and karmically wrong

 Silence yourself  once you have been confided in for nothing shared is yours to spread

Trustworthy friendship is something that is priceless and once you lose that you have nothing

In life you will come across people that are wolves in sheep's clothing. who are trained professionals that know exactly how to break down your defenses just enough to make you give them trust. Sadly it is not all their fault. Because we as humans when we are broken or hurt we desire having someone to turn to. we want to believe that that person being kind to us. Is being honest is being truly trustworthy and that at no time will you ever have to feel more pain or sorrow than you currently do in what ever situation you are in. Sadly that is not always the case. Sometimes one of the worst things in life is that others will lull you into a security only to share your information with others. so that they can know the progress of a situation. Not realizing that what they have done is broken a level of trust that is not given freely.
I am disabled and have certain disabilities and I have a special needs child who wants to trust others but once the behavior of others starts to scare him. he shuts down and pulls away. he notices everything. this in life will keep him from something but at the same time will keep him safe from other things. my child lives by the trust definition. and if it is broken. then you have forsaken him and his kind.

Respect...What does that mean.

in life respect is earned they say. but in humanity sometimes one person must show it in order for another to give it back to them. If you have been respected and given a level of trust and respect and you choose to toss it aside like it is worthless then you and only you will deal with the repercussions of the loss of respect from your own actions. now will the repercussions be that someone betrays you. will it be that karma decided that all your terrors and fears finally come true. will it be that the respect that you chose not to give others will come home to roost harder and more devastating on your life than on the person that you chose not to respect. That is not another mortals choice to decide. It is up to the universe to decide. Sadly in some cases lack of respect towards others never come back on the one that deserves it in the form it should. it hurts those closest to them. and for that it is sad.

Friendship

to each person the word friendship means something different. It's evident by the many different friendships in this world. by how people treat each other. how people use and mistreat each other then call each other friends. how others try to change people into who they feel someone should be in order for them to fit what they define a friend to them is. it is seen everyday in life people telling others what they believe should and should be weak, or strong characteristics. who they should and should not talk to. what type of parenting behaviors is right what you should do at what age. based on how that person does things. just so that a person fits into a cookie cutter mold with a group. but yet they say it's so that the children do not suffer. but not once have they asked the children if they are happy. if they children enjoy the lifestyle they have. if you asked Wednesday and Pugsley if they loved their life as Adams children or would they want to be cleavers kids some would assume they would want to be cleaver kids. but far from it. if you ask the one blonde girl in the Munsters if she wanted to be anything other than living with the Munsters. and people assumed she wanted to. but she never wanted to live anywhere but with Herman and Lilly.  see to everyone that tries to change people to fit what you want a friend to be. have them talk to your type of people. send their kids to your type of locations, do what your kids do, and enjoy the same things as you. stop building clones of yourself. and understand something. FRIENDSHIP is about accepting the world is made up of different people. and ask yourself one thing. will you love your own children the same as you do now. if one day they turn out not to be a cookie cutter mold of you. will you force them to change or will you still love them as they are. hopefully you will love them as they are. be a friend to your friends and remember the world should be made up of uniqueness not clones. and being a friend means being trustworthy, honest, respectful and not changing others to fit some mold you want them to fit into. if you can not do that. then you should not be in there life.

so the end of my blog today is this... over the past couple weeks it has been hell for me and my son. people want to assume, change, define, lie, and even afterwards continue to assert their presence into things. I give those to goddess, but I also am walking away from anyone who can not be trustworthy, respectful and a good friend. for my child, my husband and I deserve the very best in life and goddess knows our soul.

It's the principle of the thing.: My story for Fibromyalgia Awareness Day

It's the principle of the thing.: My story for Fibromyalgia Awareness Day:          So I don't really wear purple. It's more my daughter's color. But in 2011, I learned that purple was going to be...

Sometimes you must surrender yourself so you may survive and rise again

this past weekend taught me many things. it taught me that all my life so many people that spout out the words family and tell you that family is all you have in the end. is truly your worst weapon against you. you combine alcohol, anger, disapproval  of something, and what once was a kind soul, with distance and a forum to make a big scene. the outcome is a keg of dynamite. with no respect for the small children that are being traumatized, no respect for the elderly that are watching unsure how to feel. no respect for the love ones that know that the victim has medical conditions so the wrong outburst on the victims part could not only end them in the hospital but could possibly end their life or worst cause blood shed. or both.
this past weekend, my son say two sides of a reality. things that all his life he was taught to make his own choices on. with no prejudice or bias from me. he was pushed to a limit where my son has no recollection of moments in his mind. because he became that raged. he feared for my life that much and he grew that angry that words like hate, kill, disdain, you hurt my mother, i can never forgive you, i want you dead, keep them away from my mother, you are racist, you are worthless, say those things to me. when help was offered to my mother by someone that loved him, he fought her. because he could not be separated from me. i had to complete a seizure, get my scruples and then fight for air, and tell him what i needed him to do. so he could listen to me. all the while he wanted blood. a 12 yr old should never have his o.d.d. triggered to that point. a twelve year old should never see his blood family in that light.  this past weekend i learned that small cousins was traumatized over the actions they say. i maintained my composure till i could not anymore. till i was far away from the groups. but the children see a lot. and one was truly traumatized as was a autistic one. this is not behavior that special needs children need to understand. they were taught like my son that you love people you help people you do not attack them and harm them.

the high light of my weekend was earlier. it was that my son got to see that not all confederate people are evil. not all confederate people hate black people .not think blacks mixed etc. all mean slavery. not all believe that its whites only, or blacks only. that its all lives matter. the pulling up of me in the van with out flag mounted. gave them so much joy and happiness. the arrival of me, gave them happiness and pride. not because oh look its someone not white with us. but because its dixie and her family. she is cool. they loved us. and as pics snapped. and flags whipped in the wind. they proudly made sure at all times. we was in the ride. we all laughed and joked and smiled. and became good friends. my son , hubby and i started out saturday happy. met real celebrities from the dukes of hazzard. and was so happy to do so. and it was worth it all.

my day ended later at a family function with altercation that put me in the er. and now waiting to raise money to pay off bills so i can go see my specialist i am ordered to see to get seen and meds adjusted. but as i said. i would not trade that morning for anything.

confederate keeper and proud of it. yeah.

Facebook trying to stop the truth about the flags from getting out...but this southern girl won't let it happen

This man shared the truth about the flag. and facebook decided to block the ability to share it. why we dont know. but i won't be someone that allows this type of wrong doing to happen on my watch. so i am gonna share it on my blog. so the word gets out.

True Southern Raised Man!! trying to get the truth out

Time to break the silence

It is time to break the silence. I have been on bed rest for some time now. and been restricted to limited access of all things social media wise. due to i need to get some stress under control. plus just need medical rest. Over this time there have been many tragedies that have taken place in the world. I have silently read my news feed from my kindle, or from my phone and watched people who always have acted like they respected me and cared about me. show a side of themselves that I never thought I would see. I watched as the Duggars information came out. The news feeds blow up with every ones opinion on it.  some continued to even state that it is up to god. yet the same people that said that, are the same ones that have told me it was wrong that i was molested. it was wrong that their family members was molested or even have been attempted to be molested. that it was wrong that I was raped. yet the same people during this entire thing stood their ground on this and said that unless you have not sinned then only god can judge him and we should stay out of it and just forgive him and mind our business. cause it was so long ago. and the "christian family dealt with it" now see i stayed silent. but i need to say something. I CALL BULLSHIT. i call it because with that one statement i no longer trust the safety of my child around anyone of those that spoke that. I no longer trust the safety of the children in your own family's because for those that have been molested and or have family that has been. and to say well he asked god to forgive him and the kids was asleep so they didn't know it happened so its OK. and that is between him and god. yeah Chasity belt on the children for their protection from the family please. and bullshit card thrown down. and anything you have said in praise of my survival of the bad things anything you have said in support of me being a survivor. is worth a grain of salt now. because its tainted. true colors are shown.
the race cards being thrown all over the place. the riots, the cops did this, the black people did that. the white people did that. she said she was black but her parents are white, this bullshit is up there were the damn fight over the fact that Cheerios put a mixed kid with interracial parents on there commercial. at some point society has to grow the fuck up. sorry bite my ass and get off my page if you don't like what i say. and i would suggest stop reading about right now. cause it is only gonna get more blunt trust me. 
I have watched black people and white people trash the confederate flag. oddly some of them are supposedly my "Friends" its funny though cause these friends actually know that i have 3 tatts of that flag on my body. i designed the drawing for. i own a purse that my own mother bought for me that is one. i own several confederate flags. shirts, ashtrays, shot glasses and other stuff. hell at one point in my life i owned a shirt that said you wear your x and i will wear mine. and damn it if i still had that shirt i would wear it still. but i find it funny how those same friends are all. omg in a state and city were black people got shot they are still flying that flag. it terrorist. OK so now i am terrorist. seriously. 
then people smash Obama. then people smash the ones that smash Obama. lets see. you can't demand that you want respect for your choice to like the president if  you are not willing to accept that there are those that demand that they have the right to dislike him. i mean seriously get a clue. when Clinton was sitting at his desk signing papers with his intern under his desk giving him head. no one said shit. till one day the heifer came up with a disgusting dress she did not wash after wearing. i mean come on. what woman in the world. wears a dress gets Jiz on it sweat and what ever else from that day on it. and just hangs it in her closet. that is just nasty. can you imagine the hazmat that is needed to pick out a outfit. hope no friends borrow clothing from her. cause cross contamination or someones cooties, jiz, and what not may be on it. but oh nooooo some was like impeach but then it was like oh nooo his term is almost up. no one was this damn loco. but oh now everyone got a damn opinion. my opinion is simple. you don't like to see shit. unfollow it. you don't like discovering that someone is racist , or just a complete false creation of what they had said they were. unfriend them. if they give you drama block them. but above all. stop acting like your way is the only way.
and omg can we please stop all this damn drama over every single damn shit on facebook. i have teens and kids on my facebook page that are more mature than some of the adults. i am part of gamer groups and special groups that are more kind that the average friend on my friend list. 
you want to share your opinion fine. but i will share mine too. and guess what if you have not gotten a clue by now. my opinion is not a bakery style one. i don't sugar coat a damn thing. i am gonna tell you like it is. grow the fuck up. its mine for a reason. you don't like confederate flag tattoos guess what DON"T FUCKING GET ONE. you don't like confederate flags and confederate flag merchandise DON"T FUCKING BUY ANY. you don't like lesbians or gays. DON"T FUCKING BE ON>  you don't like interracial dating  guess what DON"T DATE OUT OF YOUR RACE. you don't like the fact that someone plus size wears clothing that you feel is not appropriate based on your style as a plus size girl or boy. GUESS WHAT DAMN IT DON"T PUT YOUR ASS IN IT THEN>  you don't like a fat unhealthy obese person getting a bariatric surgery. GUESS WHAT DON"T FUCKING GET ONE DUMB ASS. DO YOU SEE WERE THIS IS GOING YET. NOOOO OK LET ME HELP YOU OUT SOME MORE. CAUSE CLEARLY YOUR SLOW.   you don't like rednecks. DON'T BE ONE. you don't like people that cheat. the DON"T CHEAT AND DON"T BE OR STAY WITH ONE THAT DOES. you don't like crazy people. (OK now pay attention to this one really good) YOU DON'T LIKE CRAZY PEOPLE..WELL YOUR JUST SCREWED AS FUCK. SERIOUSLY IF YOU ARE READING THIS. THEN WELL YOU ALREADY KNOW A CRAZY PERSON. SO WTF YOU MEAN YOU DON'T LIKE CRAZY PEOPLE. WHY YOU ON MY DAMN FRIEND LIST IF YOU DON'T LIKE CRAZY PEOPLE SERIOUSLY. SOCIETY HAS CHANGED. CRAZY IS THE NEW NORMAL. GET OVER IT DAMN IT.
now with all this said i say this and i say this to be as honest as i can. NO MATTER WHAT OR WHO A PERSON IS. NO MATTER IF THEY ARE BLACK OR WHITE. A RAPPER OR A COUNTRY STAR OR A METAL OR OPERA OR WHAT EVER. NO ONE AND I MEAN NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO TAKE SOMEONES LIFE JUST CAUSE YOU THINK THEY ARE NOT WORTH BEING ON THIS EARTH. YOU ARE NOT THE HIGHER BEING. THE MOST YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO DO IS UNFRIEND , DELETE AND BLOCK AND MOVE ON. AND TO ALL THOSE THAT  HAVE SHOWED MORE SIDES OF YOU THAN A CHEAP MADE PORN LEFT IN THE BARGAIN BIN. SLAP A CLEARANCE SIGN WITH DEFECTIVE ON YOUR ASS AND MOVE ON. CAUSE THERE IS SERIOUSLY SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU.
I WOULD RATHER HAVE THE FRIENDS ON MY FRIEND LIST THAT HAVE NEVER DENIED WHAT THEY DO AND DON'T LIKE. WHO REMAINED MY FRIEND EVEN WHEN THE MUTUAL FRIENDS WE HAD NO LONGER WAS MY FRIEND. WHO STILL JUST LIKED ME FOR ME. THE CRAZY BITCH. I WOULD RATHER HAVE THE WITCH ON MY FRIEND LIST THAT EVEN THOUGH YEARS AGO SOMEONE PROVED SHE SPOKE ILL OF ME WE FACED IT, WE HEALED AND WE ARE STRONGER NOW THAN EVER BEFORE. I WOULD RATHER HAVE THAT BLACK FRIEND THAT SEES MY CONFEDERATE FLAG TATTOOS AND SAYS DIXIE I  WOULD NOT GET ONE OF THOSE MYSELF. AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU HAVE THEM. BUT IT LOOKS COOL AT LEAST DESIGN WISE. AND HONESTLY YOU GOTTA HAVE REAL GUTS TO WEAR THAT KNOWING WHAT PEOPLE WILL SAY TO YOU FROM BOTH RACE STAND POINTS.  i WOULD RATHER HAVE THAT FRIEND THAT SAYS, YES I AM LESBIAN, OR YES I AM GAY. YES I AM GONNA STAND UP FOR MY RIGHTS AND FOR ALL PEOPLES RIGHTS. SO GET USE TO IT. I WOULD RATHER HAVE THAT FRIEND THAT ACCEPTS THAT I HAVE A HUSBAND AND I AM BI AND A DOMINATRIX AND DOES NOT GIVE A SHIT BECAUSE ALL THEY CARE ABOUT IS THAT MY SON IS HAPPY AND SAFE AND THEY KNOW HE IS. 
IN OTHER WORDS. I WOULD RATHER HAVE THE HONEST ONES IN MY LIFE ANY DAY. THAN THOSE THAT HAVE SHOWN THE BAD SECRET SIDE OF THEMSELVES LATELY. AND IF THIS OFFENDS ANY OF YOU. GET THE SAM FUCKING HELL OFF MY FACEBOOK PAGE. CAUSE TRUST AND BELIEVE. NOT WORTH THE BUTTER ON MY BISCUIT OR THE PROTEIN IN MY SHAKE OR THE MONEY IT COST FOR THE STRESS MEDS. 

BLESSED BE AND I RISE ABOVE IT ALL

Never stop believing in yourself even when others do!

One of the hardest things in life to do sometimes is to believe in yourself. A lot of times, there is so much stuff that happens in your life that you will find it hard to find the top from the bottom of anything. Let alone believe in one's self. In many cases people that we have extended at at times over extended ourselves to. May be the people that let us down and stop believing in us the fastest. Which in return may cause a void or feeling of loss within us that can not be explained. Now when this happens, most will retreat into their shell or dark corner and wallow in disbelief that something so painful is happening to them. All the while they are not aware that by doing that they actually are causing themselves more pain and suffering.
Now in no way am I a expert on this subject. I can only speak from what I have done in my own life and also what therapist have helped me work through. So the one thing I have learned is that a person must not give up on themselves even when they feel like all their friends have turned their back on them. Or they feel like the people they had in their lives that once believed in them, are no longer there believing. Instead you must believe in yourself. You must know that, another person does not in any way define you as a human being. A friend, associate, acquaintance , or friend that you have not met in person yet, does not in any way define you on the inside. You must never assume that your life was tossed aside for some hateful reason in their eyes. You are not them, you do not know the struggles they go through in their lives. Maybe they feel like certain people stop being their for them too. Maybe they have grief, sorrow, stresses, that they are dealing with. All and all if you do feel that you are you only cheerleader, don't take that as a bad thing. Because of one simple reason. You can be your biggest fan, or your worst enemy. And if you put your heart and soul into it, being the biggest fan for yourself, will bring you so much greatness you will never believe that you ever had given up on yourself ever.
KNOW that you matter, ACCEPT that you are loved by yourself. and BELIEVE in yourself. For if you do that, then you are welcoming positive energy into your life and good things will come.

blessed be and Goddess bless you.

*thank you to those that made me feel alone or as if you don't want to be my friend anymore. because all you did was give me the strength to believe in myself without relying on anyone else.*

You must give yourself a voice even when others silence you

                                                             

Have you ever woke up and just been happy. I mean nothing bothering you. Not a single thing in this world eating away at you. Not a care in this world. No..well guess what you are not alone. A large part of the population does not wake up whistling and singing to cartoon song birds. dancing around the house and acting like June cleaver. No in reality a large part of the world has stress. But some are just better at wearing mask or putting on act or show for others than some are. You see, to some it is easier to hide that they are unhappy with any thing in their lives. And instead make others feel bad for not being a skittle farting unicorn on a rainbow. now why would people do that you may ask. Its really simple, at least from what I have figured out in my own life, I find that its simple. You see, misery loves company. And in order for someone that is pretending that their life is perfect or all skittles unicorn rainbow. They must in return silence what they can. or in other words. control the world and people around them. But i say this, Don't allow others to silence you. No one puts baby in the corner. Dammit Jim, I'm a doctor... i will not eat green eggs and ham SAM i am. in other words..rise up. do what ye will. and don't let the actions, attitude or demands of others push you down. feel the energy run through your body, charge up , and rise from that corner people strive to beat you into. and then shine bright. 

remember something. people that spend their lives pretending to be happy while making others miserable are just really clowns looking for a show. and the second you take that seltzer bottle and spray them in the face. there make up will wash away.. and all the vile ugly will show through and they are not scary anymore. 

rise up my little ones..remember. you don't have to pretend to be anything your not. if you are blue, be blue, happy be happy. a giant bow on a elephants butt..well OK..that one i would probably change cause woo that may get stinky..lol..but anyway..just be you.

love and light

blessed be from Dixie

Dusting off my keyboard to speak about the darkness

Dusting off my keyboard to speak about the darkness

Dusting off my keyboard to speak about the darkness

Lets talk about the darkness!

So, yesterday as I awoke and turned on facebook my wall was covered in so much  information and news it was confusing at first. I was in actual shock and awe at what i was reading. yet unsure if any of it was true. Till I actually did my research and verified the information. You see, yesterday we loss a amazing Gamer, actor and comedian by the name of Robin Williams. Even though it is still under investigation it is said that his death was a apparent suicide due to Asphyxiation. You see amongst the smiles and laughter, the red carpets , the movie premiers, the appearances with his wife on his arm. and the amazing loving fatherly tweets to his daughter Zelda. Robin was battling Depression. Now some may know that the fact is, there are many types of depression. different levels so to speak. no one has stated how bad his was. nor what all his mental state had reached. But in the end, the one thing we do know is that even amongst having a loving wife that was considered his best friend, a daughter he loved, and some great friends. He still felt that life was not bearable anymore. And it is believed that he took his life. 

Now this is what I came on to yesterday. I seen many things on my facebook wall. which by mid-day i actually just got off facebook and did not return due to it all. I seen people calling him weak, saying stuff about it was a sin to take your life. (IE..you don't know his faith , so shut it seriously)..I seen people that I like to call "the cause people"..if there is a cause in life...they will jump on it. some people call them bandwagon people.. i call them cause people. cause in one week..they will fight for gun control, then see a cause for NRA so post about it, then someone is fighting a invisible illness so their page is blown up with the invisible illness info, all the way to if it has a ribbon for it..you can bet you will find a ribbon of all the colors on their page some were. now that is fine. but be real. don't do it for attention. support these causes and issues because you believe in them. not because someone dies that is famous, or because it was posted on someone Else's page and said share please.  now with those people..there was the lovely group of bible thumpers that spent their day condemning robin for his suicide and saying that he was gonna burn in hell. and even the people that decided that to justify there own treatment and or neglect of friends that may be suffering. they spammed the 1800 suicide number with robin Williams photo attached to it..with some statement that said something about ..in memory of robin Williams ...share this suicide hot line number to save a friend.  and the best i seen..was people blasting there pages and statuses decided who with depression really have it or not. based on how they talk about it, hide it, or what they do when they hit a bad time. some believe that you don't have real depression and that you are attention whores if you talk about your condition. some people think you are just lazy ass people that want to sit home and collect a check off the government if you admit to having depression. or when you hit a moment of  deep darkness. a post is made. some even went as far as to say if you have ever spoken about your condition and or have let people know that you have depression, or mental health conditions . then you do not really have them. because people that really have them want to hide it. not tell others.  now for me. that was the kicker for me to get offline yesterday. 

you see, I am a survivor. A survivor of many things. and I have been in therapy for many things. one thing my therapist loves about me. is that I refuse to deny what has happened to me. and what I am suffering with. that I use my suffering to let others that may silently suffer know that there is someone else out there in this world that has or is going through it. and that is willing to be a shoulder if they need one. and I show them that you can survive some of the most horrific things that can happen to a person. just like I have mental illnesses that have left me permanently disabled. and medicated. there is no option due to the type of mental illnesses  for me to not take medications for some of them. some i had a choice not to and i do not. but the ones that there is no choice i take them and do it proudly.  

The fact is, I will never sit and tell anyone on this earth that their depression , or bipolar, or ptsd is fake. just because they chose to talk about it. just because maybe unbeknownst to me they have therapist that have maybe worked with them and want them not to hide it. (OK logically i doubt any Dr wants them tatting it to their body..but who knows..maybe some shrinks want them to not hide it because maybe they were like me..when i hid it..i became a cutter) so maybe they because idk..a substance abuse person or abusive to others or a danger to themselves. idk who knows what is happening in their lives. 

the simple fact is this, some of the most happiest sunshine, rainbow, unicorn farting skittles while ruining across a rainbow sky guru type people that always seem to be so zen, and happy, and so damn fru fru and full of laughs and never have any negativity enter there life. may actually be some of the biggest sufferers of the disease. just like some of the ones that post their emotions or take breaks. may only have those status set to be viewed by a select set of people. and thanks to facebook. if you are viewing it. you do not know who else is viewing it. only the person posting it knows who is viewing it. so what may seem like they are wearing there heart on their sleeve and telling the world they are sad. may actually be 10 people being told they are hitting a manic point. or them reaching out for help to people they thought really was friends.

Sadly it takes a death of someone famous to always bring out the true side of people. we lost Michael Jackson. his doctor gave him to much drugs. bam..people talked about drug use, and the proper use of prescription drugs. Whitney Houston. bam..OD/...don't do drugs..seek help...Paul walker...deadly crash..car safety...driving to fast. now robin Williams. suicide and depression..and its a battle between people trying to be the boss of others in this world. and saying what they dictate as the facts.. but the fact is. no one on this earth can say if another person's depression or bipolar is fake or real. if you chose to judge another person based on how you would react if you had it, or how someone in your family or circle of friends react to it. or even how celebrities managed to hide theirs. in the end. it will not be a celebrity next time you mourn. it could be someone you told you were there friend. but then judge. 

so my point is this.. we lost a amazing gamer, a amazing actor, and a amazing comedian all in one sudden action. he struggled and battled with depression. it was known that he had it. but know one knew that it had become that bad. 

but just because he as a actor was able to hide it, and preform and hide it even from his own wife, does not mean that the people that try to talk to you as a so called friend, or reach out to those that have called themselves family, friends, or at least someone they could come to in their time of need. it does not mean their depression is any less real. that is like when someone tells someone with depression well at least its not cancer. wtf is that shit. why do ya say stuff like that. seriously. don't compare people. learn that the world is made up of different types of people. and if everyone keeps silences those that really need someone to turn to. there will be a hell of alot more deaths in this world soon enough. no one wants to feel like they can not turn to someone for fear of being judged or made fun of. or not believed. or for fear that someone is always gonna be to busy for them. 

so evaluate your friends, associates, acquaintances, and even those people you only pretend to still be close  Friends with that you really could care less if they died . see if any of those people are or may be in dire need. see what you can do. maybe someone is hurting and is afraid to come to you because yawl aren't close anymore. or their depression or mental illness makes them feel so hated in the head that they believe you want them to kill themselves. you never know. check on your friends. CHECK ON PEOPLE> DO SOMETHING!!!!

OK...and as for me...yep i am not a attention whore. nope don't give a damn if people know i have bipolar..my bipolar is not the cute happy then sometimes sad one..nope its bipolar #2..its 90 percent sad and 10 percent happy. yet i still bust my ass each day to do my best to cheer others up and show others love. my life is not important to me. my friends lives are the things that keep me going. keeping them happy, loved and not feeling the misery that i do inside. makes me survive each day. and you know what. i am OK with that. so you can say you know one person that has depression, ptsd, anxiety, bipolar, etc. ...and if you ever need to chat...i am just a facebook inbox or Gmail away. 

i can't judge someone else. when i walk this darkness myself

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A PIECE IS GONE (writen by me in june 2009)

**i came across this old writing of mine. and realized it needed to be shared again. i wrote this back in June of 2009. I share it now cause it still is in my heart**

A PIECE IS GONE
by Dixie

As a lonely solem tear slowly slides ever so quietly down the face of a emotionless face. The silence deafens a already wounded soul. A tear is shed, but why? The black draped figure rises from the heap of a solemn life. The essence stirs around the feet of the figure. Who ever could it be? The memories swirl amongst the blood drenched clouds that dance around the  figures feet as it steps. The draped figure crumbles again. A soundless fall creeps upon the soul of the crying figures. What is wrong? WHY do you not rise? The figure rises again. The wind blows a sad breeze upon shadowed face. Gently the long flowing hair is blown away from the face. The figure reaches out but can not. A stumble an a drastic fall. The face jerks quickly away. So no one will see the pain. The eyes scream of something. But what? Why can you not reach? The leaves rustle in the distance. The figure stays silenced in the presence of the wind. The moon looks black as the soul of the creature that lays in the heap. The tears start to stream down the face. Yet you can only see them drip slowly off the cheek. onto the black dry crisp grown. The silence is broken suddenly as the teardrop meets the leaf that mysteriously breezed around the figure. An as sudden as you heard the tear drop hit the leaf. The creature notices sounds as if for the first time. The figure pushes to rise. But yet can not. Something seems to hold the creature down. The load is to heavy to carry. The drape of life weighs down the creature. There is a sudden movement. Swift, strong, an filled with something indescribable. The lifeless heap seems to have become enraged. Or is it Pain? The figures head darts back, the flowing hair falls from the figures face. The eyes are so black. The soul seems to have left. The mouth comes open as this sound comes from the figure that only one can hear. The presence hears the sound. An realizes its scream. A cry to be saved. The figure beats the ground angry. What has this creature so wounded? Why are they so hurt? The blackened sky opens up. The blood drenched moon shines upon the face. The body seems to glow. The figure falls back upon the ground almost lifeless. The moon charges the figure. The body starts to burn. The fire encompasses the figure an just as the figure layed there lifeless. There is nothing but ashes now. A small ghost like figure glides just above the ashes an says rise my child. RISE!!! IT IS DONE! The ground starts to rumble around the ashes left behind by the figure. The drape starts to whip in the wind as it has been blown to a near by tree. The angelic ghostly figure charges the ashes with the purest white light ever seen. The voice states again. RISE!!! IT IS DONE!!! The ground rumbles more. The ashes start to shift. A hand starts to amurst from the ashes. The figure rises piece by piece. The more light that shines down. The more shows. Till finally there stands the figure. Naked to the world. A smaller angelic figure arrives an stands beside the angelic lighted figure an ask. How is it possible? How does someone die an turn to ashes. An yet they stand before you now in the flesh again? The figure never says a word. They just point to something. Oh my Goddess. WHAT IS THAT? says the small figure. How can it be? My Goddess, why is there no heart? The lighted figure smiles an says....Because as it reached the end of one path. They had become a shell of a soul. That swallows the pain till it suffocated the heart. SO as i gave them life an helped them to rise. I took away what hurt them the most. But why my Goddess? Why would you take away there heart an soul. an leave them dead inside. OH MY CHILD>>>YOU ARE SO PRECIOUS. BUT YOU DO NOT SEE THE BIGGER PICTURE.  Says The lighted figure to the small being. MY dear sweet one. I didn't take it a away for ever. I took it to fix it. the small being looks confused, as she stares oddly at the empty place that a heart should go. Tears start to fall. my dear sweet child didnt cry. The being must walk this earth in this way. So that they can find that final piece. YOU SEE MY CHILD. MANY WALK THIS EARTH THINKIN THEY DESERVE LOVE HAPPINESS AN TAKE IT FOR GRANTED.  But my child. This was a damaged soul. I sent them into the world with a pure heart. AN pain an heartache. blackened it till it was a heap upon the ground. SO IT died. Now i send the vessel into the world with out it. BUT with this simple touch upon there chest. They know a piece is missing. The angelic figure lightly touches the chest of the being. A  GASP IS HEARD! The eyes of the figure open an were there world was draped in darkness there stood such a white light so bright an warm. The figure looks into what appears to be the most powerful eyes ever imagined. an touches the empty place a heart should be. A puzzled look falls upon the face. The angelic voice touches there hand an says YES MY CHILD A PIECE IS NOW MISSING. YOU CAN BREATH AGAIN. The figure crys with a look of disappointment on there face. The angelic being places there fingers over there lips an says. MY CHILD IT IS FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. YOUR SOUL WAS DESTROYED FROM PAIN AN LOSS. I HAVE FIXED IT. BUT SOMEONE IN THIS WORLD NOW HOLDS THE SECRET TOUCH THAT WILL UNLOCK IT FROM ITS HIDDEN PLACE. UNTIL THEN MY CHILD YOU WILL LIVE WITH A PIECE MISSING. GONE BUT NOT FORGOTTEN.

The smaller angelic creature walks up to the being an extends there lil hands. an says...hello my precious one. just like a phoenix your life built up as long as you could handle an you died upon the flames of your souls death. An just as a phoenix rises...YOU AROSE FROM THE ASHES. YOU HAVE RISEN. a piece my be gone. but not forever. Follow your path an in time when you least expect it. you will meet the one that holds the secret to your hearts were abouts. an only they will truly unlock the essence that makes you complete.

The larger angelic being places her hand amongst the shoulder of the smaller angelic being. an with that motion. They turn an leave the risen being standing alone in the midst of what once was. and in the mind set of what will be.

IN THE DISTANCE AS THE TWO FIGURES LEAVE, YOU HEAR A PRECIOUS LIL VOICE ASK....MY GODDESS WHO WAS THAT BEING.


.......THE GODDESS SAYS.......

IT IS THE TRUE PHOENIX RISEN FROM THE DEPTHS OF DESPAIR AN HELL TO SURVIVE ONCE MORE.

.....THE LIL VOICE ASK.....

BUT MY GODDESS WHAT IS HER NAME.

.....THE GODDESS SAYS.....

MY CHILD IT IS.....

.....YOU!!!...

.....THE LIL VOICE SAYS....

BUT MY GODDESS I'M DEAD AN WALK AMONGST YOU.

.....THE GODDESS SAYS....

YES MY CHILD. BUT THAT IS DIXIE. YOU ARE WHAT SHE ONCE WAS. THE PURE AN PLEASANT MEMORIES INSIDE OF HER. AS IT DIED SO DID YOU. AN WITH ANY PHOENIX YOU AROSE AGAIN.
IT WASN'T YOUR TIME. AN YOU HAVE MORE TO DO IN THIS LIFE IN THAT FORM. YOU JUST NEEDED TO FINALLY BURN TO ASHES SO THAT YOU COULD RISE AS THE PHOENIX YOU ARE ONCE MORE.

....THE LIL VOICE SAYS....

BLESSED BE MY GODDESS. BUT WHY DID YOU HAVE ME SEE THAT. 

.....THE GODDESS SMILES AN SAYS.....

SO YOU COULD FINALLY SEE THAT EVEN ON YOUR DARKEST DAY MY CHILD. YOU WILL RISE. YOU WILL RISE HIGHER THAN ANY DRAGON CAN SORE. AN THAT EVEN WHEN DESTROYED TO ASHES YOU WILL RISE. YOU ARE THE PHOENIX MY CHILD.

.......................................................

THE GROW BURST INTO FLAMES...THE FIGURE IN THE DISTANCES SPEAKS AN SCREAMS....I AM DIXIE...AN INTO THE FLAMES I GO...AN I RISE. I AM PHOENIX RISEN. I RISE. ......BLESSED BE.

........THE LIL VOICE SMILES AN SAYS...

AS I HEAR THAT...I KNOW I WILL BE OK.

The ground burst into larger flames...the lil being extends her arms. an were he arms once was. fiery wings. she rises. an soars .


....SHE HEARS ONE FINALLY INSTRUCTIONS....

REMEMBER...A PIECE IS GONE BUT NOT FORGOTTEN. RISE AN FIND THE SECRET.


BLESSED BE.

Beginning Witch Craft * Wicca-Spirituality.com

Beginning Witch Craft * Wicca-Spirituality.com

WHEN IS IT TIME TO TELL A FRIEND GOOD-BYE

So many times in life people wonder why someone acts or does something to them that makes no sense. Why someone suddenly starts to mistreat you or ignore you. Why a person is only around when there is no one else for them to call. Or when they need their ego stroked. Many wonder why someone in their life chooses to mistreat them even though they may do what they can with the limited resources they have to be all they can be for that person. Now when this happens, you sit and wonder wtf is going on. Why must we always hurt this way. What did I do to deserve someone acting like this. Many times a person will actually be so upset that they can not imagine a good reason to be happy at that moment. They question what to do next. Then that little voice inside them whispers...LET THEM GO!!. now if they listen to the voice is a entirely different story. But lets just cover when its time to let a friend or person in your life go for good. 
The answer to that is really easy actually. You should have at least heard if not also been taught the statement treat others how you want to be treated. which simply...if you are putting in 100 percent to the relationship no matter what type it is. then the other person needs to as well. they need to call you just like you call them. they need to text you like you text them. they need to talk to you not ignore you. cause they would not like it if you ignored them. but above all..you should be their equal. one giant red flag is when someone gets so big for their britches that they become so cocky and start treating their elders, their friends, hell anyone they know that does not kiss their ass. like they are beneath them. Well if you see that red flag, its time to stop drop and roll. stop being there friend. drop them like the piece of crap they are treating you like. and roll up and put away the welcome mat so that they know they are no longer welcome in your life. plain and simple. love yourself enough to want to be happy in every aspect of your life. if you miss old friends. attempt to contact them. if they are receptive to you reconnecting then great. if not..then know that at this time it is not in the cards. lets see..also if you have exes that are still in your life. and you have no children with them. ask yourself why are they in your life. now in some cases you were great friends before hand..so why not remain friends if the split was nice. but if you broke up because someone was a cheater, or psycho, or a abuser, or hell they stole money from you and your child, or had a bad tendency of assault and battery. then ask yourself why they are your friend. get as far away from that negative type stuff as you can. you can not master your future if you are a prisoner to your past. and if you have someone in your present that is from a negative part of your past..then you need to remove it like a cancer. cause it will sit there reminding you of what you went through. and every time something crappy happens. ta dah there they are again. Well lets see all the before mentioned examples can be applied to family as well. Now that brings me to the top..Current friends. honestly. If your gut says something is not right. IF your GUT says THEY ARE LYING  IF your GUT says They are being as fake as a spam mail claiming you won a billion dollars. hell IF your GUT says They are JUST USERS AND A CHAMELEON THAT USES AND LIES A LOT  then it is time to listen to your gut. 
STOP TRYING TO SEE THAT OUNCE OF GOOD IN THAT PERSON. REALIZE THAT YES EVERYONE MAY HAVE GOOD. BUT IT DOES NOT MEAN THEY ALL WILL EVER FIND IT. and it sure as hell is not your job to suffer at the hands of them. LOVE YOURSELF ENOUGH TO REMEMBER THAT YOU DESERVE RESPECT, LOVE, AND HONESTY
well that is about it..love you, enjoy yourself, and remember when your gut says something is wrong. listen to it. cause its trying to tell you something that your eyes may not be able to see. 

SOMETIMES YOU JUST GOTTA REFUSE TO PLAY OTHERS CHILDISH GAMES AND INSTEAD BE A ADULT AND WALK AWAY WITH YOUR HEAD HELD HIGH

As I have grown older I have found that with years knowledge comes. I have found that some people no matter the age recess into teenage antics while others grow up and become determined to be mature positive effects on society. With this I notice that there are a few things in life that can distract even the most mature individual and give them a moment of immaturity. Their kids, their family, their love life, and even their friends. Some would rather not face things in life like adults. Because drama is easier and more tempting to join in on or start. Some will lead you to believe that they are strong because they fight back at what someone says. Even if it means they are just adding more negativity to today's society. They may even lead you to believe that they are the victim of hostile constant haters or injustice. When in fact they are more likely to have not realized that they are causing some of the issues in their life. By fighting back at negativity with negativity.
Sadly so many do not realize that as much effort that they put into talking about others. Joining in on drama, or talking about people behind their backs, or lying to someone (IE spreading negativity). they actually could have used that same effort and energy to just have the strength to be a grown up and walk away from the non sense and say I will not partake in any childish activities that cause pain to others and that will not be a positive effect on my life. Sadly some may not ever realize that this is just as easy to do as starting or joining in on drama. Why do I say that you ask. Its simple. Cause it takes strength and courage to be a adult. It takes nothing to be a blemish on society. Someones childish actions or hurtful ways can destroy someone else. An in return cause them to reap karma that they would not want. But Just doing something as simple as being positive and standing up and saying..I am a adult I will not be negative. I will be positive in my life and not hurt others. I am gonna take the high road. Then you in essence are welcoming positive things into your life.
Remember Sometimes you just gotta stop fighting childish games people play and instead be adult enough to walk away with your head held high.