Thursday, September 28, 2017

Focus on the things you CAN actually change not what society says rant about!!!

I am so done with all this drama on FB and in the world. my health depletes every single day. Each day I wonder if this the day my heart will give out. is this the day I will have so much stress that I trigger a stress seizure at the wrong time and hit my head and end it all. I wonder each day if I have the inner strength to fight not taking my life each and every day cause not a single damn friend checks on me, calls, visits or anything. I wonder will I survive all the shit with Dragon. 
but each day I watch on social media as each day my wall is a damn battlefield. were people pick and choose the shit they want to rant over. one week its leave the statues alone or destroy them. it's not heritage its a desire to bring slavery back, keep racism or hate (says one group) or no its heritage and not hate and we don't want our flag or us lumped together with those Nazis and KKK members. The next week its, all lives matters versus black lives matter. all while each and everyday people neglect to point out actual real violence going on in the cities each second of every day. people not liking the verdict of something so damn 10 mins of fame on tv by destroying their own city. destroying peoples businesses. oh wait..oh look north Korea actually tested a hydrogen bomb and another rocket that could reach Guam...but no one shows concern for that shit.. hell Nah..nothing about that being important.. its I hate the prez, or I like the prez.. then bam... each day its your antichrist or your I love christ.. but suddenly fire and brimstone so to speak floods the earth..literally floods the earth and rips apart several states and islands. places are left with no electric. Entire islands are no uninhabitable. people lose their families their homes.. hurricane after the hurricane is hitting. but no one notices that the news has actually played watch me pull a rabbit out my hat. 
seriously while people should be trying to help hurricane victims, or at least discussing the fact that P.Rico is now dang near lost.. and how we as a country can help all these destroyed places. what has to happen? 
Facebook lights up again. aww hell... people on the warpath cause someone didn't' stand.let me see... why is no one telling every single person in every bar, home, etc..that when the national anthem is played they are anti-country if they don't stand. so when all those people watching the game in their home don't stand and in bars don't go silent or stand why the hell is no one calling them a son of bitches. oh  wait..cause, that is normal. 
so focus people. you don't like what I say..move on.. shut the fuck up..get over it.. my page. 
but seriously.. focus on the shit killing your own city or county..drugs, gangs, murder.. we got a dude now that his mother is still begging for an answer on why he was killed in his trailer and no one has been found. Jay Shifflet has passed on and no one ever has been charged. oh wait..but we still focusing on someone kneeling. shut the hell up. how about the girls getting raped. The children being abused or molested in your own town or city. how about all the abuse victims that are currently staying at the domestic violence shelters in your area or the homeless in your area that is going without food to eat tonight.

damn it people ..focus.. what the hell is wrong with yawl. I get it..yay it plays ..its respect..but damn you want to rant..rant and make a stand for something you can change in your own town. you are not gonna get a single athlete to stand up or change prez from calling a nazi a find gentlemen and an athlete a son of a bitch. so get a clue. fight for the shit in your own city and town that needs your voice. 

I can't tell you what to do and expect you to do it. But I hope that I can give you food for thought and give a light to the stuff in our own areas that still need fighting for. such as answers to unsolved murder cases, stopping the drugs from reaching our kids and our friends and family. Stopping and or preventing domestic violence. And doing what we can to help someone in need that may not have the strength or courage to ask for help due to embarrassment or fear. 

And seriously that fear of embarrassment may actually come from what they see on these facebook walls. Just a thought everyone.

Thursday, March 16, 2017

Take Stock Of Your Life And Fix Things For Yourself Not Others

Have you ever sat and truly thought about your actions as an adult versus the actions we tell our children to have. Have you ever truly sat, and reflected on your own behavior, your own words, emotions and public displays you show others. That your children see. Then considered the words that come out of your mouth towards your kids when raising them. Most of us teach our children not to follow the heard. Not to beg others to be their friends. We actually say things like "sweety, if they can't see the good in you, then they are not worth your friendship anyway". So many times we have heald and wiped our children's tears, or hugged them after someone has bullied them or broken their hearts. Or even after someone who portrayed themselves as their friends and gotten close enough to feel to them like family. Just dropped them. Most of us but not all of us, usually go as far as to help pull back the reigns on our children as we watch them go into total meltdowns, and they try to beg, claw, and pretty much do anything they can to force their way back into someone that truly was clearly not willing to make the effort to be a good friend.
As adults, we don't take our own advice. Which is truly sad. We keep coffins and urns of already dead friendships and relationships that are just half there. they are not connected or tethered to the other person anymore. You are the only one that still has it tied/tethered to you. You allow the memories that once was, or even what you hoped the making of a new friendship and the creation of hope to happen memories to make you fight for people that have already let you go. Sometimes you must stop and evaluate yourself. Love yourself enough to truly work on you for you. Know that people will be in your life and be active and present in the now in your life if they truly consider you a friend or a value in their life.
Let me say that again so you get it!!!

Did you get that this time? When you go to claw at that dead or on life support relationship. Ask yourself something. How come they have time to give effort to everyone else. To take a moment out of their day to facetime, text, IM, call or whatever so many others. Yet they can not call, text, IM, or even click like on a single comment status or anything of yours. I WILL GIVE YOU A SECOND TO LET THAT MARINATE! OK GOT THE ANSWER? DING! LIGHT BULB! O.K. So now that you see it, and yes it hurts like hell, It hurts like a full body Brazilian wax followed by a charcoal facial peel max being slowly peeled off your face. and having your eyebrows plucked for good measure. then slapped on the ass and told you been charged 300 bucks for the service. "ouch"
So yes it hurts, but guess what. You got clarity now don't you? So when you are talking to your kids you have that passion and you want them to do what is right. But when you look at yourself in the mirror, can you say you are doing what is right for you. Can you say you are doing what is healthy for your inner being as well as your outer being? Fix yourself and your happiness not for me, not for your kids. But for yourself.  Cause the day you can tell your story of the way you once was without shedding a tear. Is the moment you are healed. The day you can wake up and you don't rush to social media to see if anyone reached out to you that you are clawing to, you are healed. The day you just wake up and know that you are doing life for you not to fill a void, or to hold on to memories or dreams of what can me. Then you have fixed you for you.
Trust me that is all I want for anyone in this world. No matter who they are.

Goddess guided me to write this, I am working on me for me. May you find your way to do so too.
blessed be.


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