Monday, June 10, 2013

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

A PIECE IS GONE (writen by me in june 2009)


**i came across this old writing of mine. and realized it needed to be shared again. i wrote this back in June of 2009. I share it now cause it still is in my heart**





A PIECE IS GONE
by Dixie
As a lonely solem tear slowly slides ever so quietly down the face of a emotionless face. The silence deafens a already wounded soul. A tear is shed, but why? The black draped figure rises from the heap of a solemn life. The essence stirs around the feet of the figure. Who ever could it be? The memories swirl amongst the blood drenched clouds that dance around the  figures feet as it steps. The draped figure crumbles again. A soundless fall creeps upon the soul of the crying figures. What is wrong? WHY do you not rise? The figure rises again. The wind blows a sad breeze upon shadowed face. Gently the long flowing hair is blown away from the face. The figure reaches out but can not. A stumble an a drastic fall. The face jerks quickly away. So no one will see the pain. The eyes scream of something. But what? Why can you not reach? The leaves rustle in the distance. The figure stays silenced in the presence of the wind. The moon looks black as the soul of the creature that lays in the heap. The tears start to stream down the face. Yet you can only see them drip slowly off the cheek. onto the black dry crisp grown. The silence is broken suddenly as the teardrop meets the leaf that mysteriously breezed around the figure. An as sudden as you heard the tear drop hit the leaf. The creature notices sounds as if for the first time. The figure pushes to rise. But yet can not. Something seems to hold the creature down. The load is to heavy to carry. The drape of life weighs down the creature. There is a sudden movement. Swift, strong, an filled with something indescribable. The lifeless heap seems to have become enraged. Or is it Pain? The figures head darts back, the flowing hair falls from the figures face. The eyes are so black. The soul seems to have left. The mouth comes open as this sound comes from the figure that only one can hear. The presence hears the sound. An realizes its scream. A cry to be saved. The figure beats the ground angry. What has this creature so wounded? Why are they so hurt? The blackened sky opens up. The blood drenched moon shines upon the face. The body seems to glow. The figure falls back upon the ground almost lifeless. The moon charges the figure. The body starts to burn. The fire encompasses the figure an just as the figure layed there lifeless. There is nothing but ashes now. A small ghost like figure glides just above the ashes an says rise my child. RISE!!! IT IS DONE! The ground starts to rumble around the ashes left behind by the figure. The drape starts to whip in the wind as it has been blown to a near by tree. The angelic ghostly figure charges the ashes with the purest white light ever seen. The voice states again. RISE!!! IT IS DONE!!! The ground rumbles more. The ashes start to shift. A hand starts to amurst from the ashes. The figure rises piece by piece. The more light that shines down. The more shows. Till finally there stands the figure. Naked to the world. A smaller angelic figure arrives an stands beside the angelic lighted figure an ask. How is it possible? How does someone die an turn to ashes. An yet they stand before you now in the flesh again? The figure never says a word. They just point to something. Oh my Goddess. WHAT IS THAT? says the small figure. How can it be? My Goddess, why is there no heart? The lighted figure smiles an says....Because as it reached the end of one path. They had become a shell of a soul. That swallows the pain till it suffocated the heart. SO as i gave them life an helped them to rise. I took away what hurt them the most. But why my Goddess? Why would you take away there heart an soul. an leave them dead inside. OH MY CHILD>>>YOU ARE SO PRECIOUS. BUT YOU DO NOT SEE THE BIGGER PICTURE.  Says The lighted figure to the small being. MY dear sweet one. I didn't take it a away for ever. I took it to fix it. the small being looks confused, as she stares oddly at the empty place that a heart should go. Tears start to fall. my dear sweet child didnt cry. The being must walk this earth in this way. So that they can find that final piece. YOU SEE MY CHILD. MANY WALK THIS EARTH THINKIN THEY DESERVE LOVE HAPPINESS AN TAKE IT FOR GRANTED.  But my child. This was a damaged soul. I sent them into the world with a pure heart. AN pain an heartache. blackened it till it was a heap upon the ground. SO IT died. Now i send the vessel into the world with out it. BUT with this simple touch upon there chest. They know a piece is missing. The angelic figure lightly touches the chest of the being. A  GASP IS HEARD! The eyes of the figure open an were there world was draped in darkness there stood such a white light so bright an warm. The figure looks into what appears to be the most powerful eyes ever imagined. an touches the empty place a heart should be. A puzzled look falls upon the face. The angelic voice touches there hand an says YES MY CHILD A PIECE IS NOW MISSING. YOU CAN BREATH AGAIN. The figure crys with a look of disappointment on there face. The angelic being places there fingers over there lips an says. MY CHILD IT IS FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. YOUR SOUL WAS DESTROYED FROM PAIN AN LOSS. I HAVE FIXED IT. BUT SOMEONE IN THIS WORLD NOW HOLDS THE SECRET TOUCH THAT WILL UNLOCK IT FROM ITS HIDDEN PLACE. UNTIL THEN MY CHILD YOU WILL LIVE WITH A PIECE MISSING. GONE BUT NOT FORGOTTEN.

The smaller angelic creature walks up to the being an extends there lil hands. an says...hello my precious one. just like a phoenix your life built up as long as you could handle an you died upon the flames of your souls death. An just as a phoenix rises...YOU AROSE FROM THE ASHES. YOU HAVE RISEN. a piece my be gone. but not forever. Follow your path an in time when you least expect it. you will meet the one that holds the secret to your hearts were abouts. an only they will truly unlock the essence that makes you complete.


The larger angelic being places her hand amongst the shoulder of the smaller angelic being. an with that motion. They turn an leave the risen being standing alone in the midst of what once was. and in the mind set of what will be.


IN THE DISTANCE AS THE TWO FIGURES LEAVE, YOU HEAR A PRECIOUS LIL VOICE ASK....MY GODDESS WHO WAS THAT BEING.



.......THE GODDESS SAYS.......


IT IS THE TRUE PHOENIX RISEN FROM THE DEPTHS OF DESPAIR AN HELL TO SURVIVE ONCE MORE.


.....THE LIL VOICE ASK.....


BUT MY GODDESS WHAT IS HER NAME.


.....THE GODDESS SAYS.....


MY CHILD IT IS.....


.....YOU!!!...


.....THE LIL VOICE SAYS....


BUT MY GODDESS I'M DEAD AN WALK AMONGST YOU.


.....THE GODDESS SAYS....


YES MY CHILD. BUT THAT IS DIXIE. YOU ARE WHAT SHE ONCE WAS. THE PURE AN PLEASANT MEMORIES INSIDE OF HER. AS IT DIED SO DID YOU. AN WITH ANY PHOENIX YOU AROSE AGAIN.

IT WASN'T YOUR TIME. AN YOU HAVE MORE TO DO IN THIS LIFE IN THAT FORM. YOU JUST NEEDED TO FINALLY BURN TO ASHES SO THAT YOU COULD RISE AS THE PHOENIX YOU ARE ONCE MORE.

....THE LIL VOICE SAYS....


BLESSED BE MY GODDESS. BUT WHY DID YOU HAVE ME SEE THAT. 


.....THE GODDESS SMILES AN SAYS.....


SO YOU COULD FINALLY SEE THAT EVEN ON YOUR DARKEST DAY MY CHILD. YOU WILL RISE. YOU WILL RISE HIGHER THAN ANY DRAGON CAN SORE. AN THAT EVEN WHEN DESTROYED TO ASHES YOU WILL RISE. YOU ARE THE PHOENIX MY CHILD.


.......................................................


THE GROW BURST INTO FLAMES...THE FIGURE IN THE DISTANCES SPEAKS AN SCREAMS....I AM DIXIE...AN INTO THE FLAMES I GO...AN I RISE. I AM PHOENIX RISEN. I RISE. ......BLESSED BE.


........THE LIL VOICE SMILES AN SAYS...


AS I HEAR THAT...I KNOW I WILL BE OK.


The ground burst into larger flames...the lil being extends her arms. an were he arms once was. fiery wings. she rises. an soars .



....SHE HEARS ONE FINALLY INSTRUCTIONS....


REMEMBER...A PIECE IS GONE BUT NOT FORGOTTEN. RISE AN FIND THE SECRET.



BLESSED BE.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

WHEN IS IT TIME TO TELL A FRIEND GOOD-BYE


So many times in life people wonder why someone acts or does something to them that makes no sense. Why someone suddenly starts to mistreat you or ignore you. Why a person is only around when there is no one else for them to call. Or when they need their ego stroked. Many wonder why someone in their life chooses to mistreat them even though they may do what they can with the limited resources they have to be all they can be for that person. Now when this happens, you sit and wonder wtf is going on. Why must we always hurt this way. What did I do to deserve someone acting like this. Many times a person will actually be so upset that they can not imagine a good reason to be happy at that moment. They question what to do next. Then that little voice inside them whispers...LET THEM GO!!. now if they listen to the voice is a entirely different story. But lets just cover when its time to let a friend or person in your life go for good. 
The answer to that is really easy actually. You should have at least heard if not also been taught the statement treat others how you want to be treated. which simply...if you are putting in 100 percent to the relationship no matter what type it is. then the other person needs to as well. they need to call you just like you call them. they need to text you like you text them. they need to talk to you not ignore you. cause they would not like it if you ignored them. but above all..you should be their equal. one giant red flag is when someone gets so big for their britches that they become so cocky and start treating their elders, their friends, hell anyone they know that does not kiss their ass. like they are beneath them. Well if you see that red flag, its time to stop drop and roll. stop being there friend. drop them like the piece of crap they are treating you like. and roll up and put away the welcome mat so that they know they are no longer welcome in your life. plain and simple. love yourself enough to want to be happy in every aspect of your life. if you miss old friends. attempt to contact them. if they are receptive to you reconnecting then great. if not..then know that at this time it is not in the cards. lets see..also if you have exes that are still in your life. and you have no children with them. ask yourself why are they in your life. now in some cases you were great friends before hand..so why not remain friends if the split was nice. but if you broke up because someone was a cheater, or psycho, or a abuser, or hell they stole money from you and your child, or had a bad tendency of assault and battery. then ask yourself why they are your friend. get as far away from that negative type stuff as you can. you can not master your future if you are a prisoner to your past. and if you have someone in your present that is from a negative part of your past..then you need to remove it like a cancer. cause it will sit there reminding you of what you went through. and every time something crappy happens. ta dah there they are again. Well lets see all the before mentioned examples can be applied to family as well. Now that brings me to the top..Current friends. honestly. If your gut says something is not right. IF your GUT says THEY ARE LYING  IF your GUT says They are being as fake as a spam mail claiming you won a billion dollars. hell IF your GUT says They are JUST USERS AND A CHAMELEON THAT USES AND LIES A LOT  then it is time to listen to your gut. 
STOP TRYING TO SEE THAT OUNCE OF GOOD IN THAT PERSON. REALIZE THAT YES EVERYONE MAY HAVE GOOD. BUT IT DOES NOT MEAN THEY ALL WILL EVER FIND IT. and it sure as hell is not your job to suffer at the hands of them. LOVE YOURSELF ENOUGH TO REMEMBER THAT YOU DESERVE RESPECT, LOVE, AND HONESTY
well that is about it..love you, enjoy yourself, and remember when your gut says something is wrong. listen to it. cause its trying to tell you something that your eyes may not be able to see. 

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

SOMETIMES YOU JUST GOTTA REFUSE TO PLAY OTHERS CHILDISH GAMES AND INSTEAD BE A ADULT AND WALK AWAY WITH YOUR HEAD HELD HIGH



As I have grown older I have found that with years knowledge comes. I have found that some people no matter the age recess into teenage antics while others grow up and become determined to be mature positive effects on society. With this I notice that there are a few things in life that can distract even the most mature individual and give them a moment of immaturity. Their kids, their family, their love life, and even their friends. Some would rather not face things in life like adults. Because drama is easier and more tempting to join in on or start. Some will lead you to believe that they are strong because they fight back at what someone says. Even if it means they are just adding more negativity to today's society. They may even lead you to believe that they are the victim of hostile constant haters or injustice. When in fact they are more likely to have not realized that they are causing some of the issues in their life. By fighting back at negativity with negativity.
Sadly so many do not realize that as much effort that they put into talking about others. Joining in on drama, or talking about people behind their backs, or lying to someone (IE spreading negativity). they actually could have used that same effort and energy to just have the strength to be a grown up and walk away from the non sense and say I will not partake in any childish activities that cause pain to others and that will not be a positive effect on my life. Sadly some may not ever realize that this is just as easy to do as starting or joining in on drama. Why do I say that you ask. Its simple. Cause it takes strength and courage to be a adult. It takes nothing to be a blemish on society. Someones childish actions or hurtful ways can destroy someone else. An in return cause them to reap karma that they would not want. But Just doing something as simple as being positive and standing up and saying..I am a adult I will not be negative. I will be positive in my life and not hurt others. I am gonna take the high road. Then you in essence are welcoming positive things into your life.
Remember Sometimes you just gotta stop fighting childish games people play and instead be adult enough to walk away with your head held high.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Never Stop Believing In The Positive With-in Yourself



In life there are things that make you feel weak and broken. You feel as if it is you against the world. You will find that at times your positive life struggles to remain happy and negative free. Sometimes things as simple as a cold, a virus, or family stress can break you and bring the strongest person to their knees. But I say this, no matter what you go through in life, you must remember that positive energy resides with-in you. You must never stop believing in it. Do not forget that you are in charge of it. Dig deep and search for even a strand of hope and positive energy and let it ripple with in you. until you can feel it grow larger and larger. And once you realize that all you gotta do is believe. Then anything is possible. May the goddess walk with you. May she help you find the love with in yourself and enjoy life as positive as it can be for you. blessed be.

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Sometimes even I must take a break and let myself crumble


There is this moment in your life when sleep deprived and overwhelmed meet. When being super woman and everything for everyone crashes together. Where attempting to be a great spouse and holding everyone else together all comes to a big smashing thump in the middle. When your strong body finally says "wait does no one understand what is happening inside me!". When you as a human being finally get tired of arguing and fighting. The mood swings. The solitude. The being everything for everyone but then coming home and being exiled to a single room in a home you pay everything in. But being blamed cause your health prevents others from contributing. There comes a time when you grow so tired of hearing the clicks of keys on a keyboard, the yapping of everyone else. The gross sounds seeping through your walls and ceiling. The disgusting acts being done so loud and you pound and pound screaming that they please keep it down so you can sleep. but they just get louder. There comes a time when your world seems to suffocate you. and honestly you wonder if it is all worth it. There comes a time when the struggle to stay positive becomes hard to bare and you wonder if you have the strength to do it. when you feel like you are just so alone. When you finally decide that you can not hold up everything on your own all the time. You struggle to walk, struggle to stand. But finally all you can do. is.......CRUMBLE. You may feel that you are letting the world down by crumbling. But honestly even the strongest phoenix can only carry the heaviest load for so long. before it burst into flames. falls to ashes and once again is reborn. So its not about the fact that the crumble. It is about the fact that you once again rise from the ashes after you catch your breath and take time for you. I rise..I rise.. I rise..I rise from the ashes like the phoenix I am. And once more I will fly. I will rise from the struggles and heavy loads I chose to carry that weigh me down. I rise from the collapsed body that has fallen to the ground. And from the ashes of my former self I rise once more. I rise because I know I can. I rise because it is not failure to crumble it is part of being a phoenix. It is part of who I am. Even the most positive and strongest person needs to crumble and rise from time to time. So I RISE. Once I rise I may be shaky at first, but I will find my footing once more and my flight will become stronger each day. And with that I will fly strong and proud in the Goddess light.
Merry Meet, Merry Part. Merry Meet again. blessed be and remember just that you tried means that you already are winning. blessed be.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Happy New Year



This one is simple and sweet. Happy new year to all. may your year be as you wish it to you. may you get out of it what you put into it. may you accept the positive things that are given to you. may you be inspired to do something that you always wanted to do. and may you be true to who you are. no matter if it is not the normal for those around you. enjoy this new year. celebrate life and above all just live life.
may the goddess bless you. and walk with you. happy new year from Dixiewitch and Dixiewitch Creations.

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