Monday, September 7, 2015

Sometimes you must surrender yourself so you may survive and rise again

this past weekend taught me many things. it taught me that all my life so many people that spout out the words family and tell you that family is all you have in the end. is truly your worst weapon against you. you combine alcohol, anger, disapproval  of something, and what once was a kind soul, with distance and a forum to make a big scene. the outcome is a keg of dynamite. with no respect for the small children that are being traumatized, no respect for the elderly that are watching unsure how to feel. no respect for the love ones that know that the victim has medical conditions so the wrong outburst on the victims part could not only end them in the hospital but could possibly end their life or worst cause blood shed. or both.
this past weekend, my son say two sides of a reality. things that all his life he was taught to make his own choices on. with no prejudice or bias from me. he was pushed to a limit where my son has no recollection of moments in his mind. because he became that raged. he feared for my life that much and he grew that angry that words like hate, kill, disdain, you hurt my mother, i can never forgive you, i want you dead, keep them away from my mother, you are racist, you are worthless, say those things to me. when help was offered to my mother by someone that loved him, he fought her. because he could not be separated from me. i had to complete a seizure, get my scruples and then fight for air, and tell him what i needed him to do. so he could listen to me. all the while he wanted blood. a 12 yr old should never have his o.d.d. triggered to that point. a twelve year old should never see his blood family in that light.  this past weekend i learned that small cousins was traumatized over the actions they say. i maintained my composure till i could not anymore. till i was far away from the groups. but the children see a lot. and one was truly traumatized as was a autistic one. this is not behavior that special needs children need to understand. they were taught like my son that you love people you help people you do not attack them and harm them.

the high light of my weekend was earlier. it was that my son got to see that not all confederate people are evil. not all confederate people hate black people .not think blacks mixed etc. all mean slavery. not all believe that its whites only, or blacks only. that its all lives matter. the pulling up of me in the van with out flag mounted. gave them so much joy and happiness. the arrival of me, gave them happiness and pride. not because oh look its someone not white with us. but because its dixie and her family. she is cool. they loved us. and as pics snapped. and flags whipped in the wind. they proudly made sure at all times. we was in the ride. we all laughed and joked and smiled. and became good friends. my son , hubby and i started out saturday happy. met real celebrities from the dukes of hazzard. and was so happy to do so. and it was worth it all.

my day ended later at a family function with altercation that put me in the er. and now waiting to raise money to pay off bills so i can go see my specialist i am ordered to see to get seen and meds adjusted. but as i said. i would not trade that morning for anything.

confederate keeper and proud of it. yeah.

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Facebook trying to stop the truth about the flags from getting out...but this southern girl won't let it happen

This man shared the truth about the flag. and facebook decided to block the ability to share it. why we dont know. but i won't be someone that allows this type of wrong doing to happen on my watch. so i am gonna share it on my blog. so the word gets out.
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True Southern Raised Man!! trying to get the truth out

Saturday, June 20, 2015

Time to break the silence




It is time to break the silence. I have been on bed rest for some time now. and been restricted to limited access of all things social media wise. due to i need to get some stress under control. plus just need medical rest. Over this time there have been many tragedies that have taken place in the world. I have silently read my news feed from my kindle, or from my phone and watched people who always have acted like they respected me and cared about me. show a side of themselves that I never thought I would see. I watched as the Duggars information came out. The news feeds blow up with every ones opinion on it.  some continued to even state that it is up to god. yet the same people that said that, are the same ones that have told me it was wrong that i was molested. it was wrong that their family members was molested or even have been attempted to be molested. that it was wrong that I was raped. yet the same people during this entire thing stood their ground on this and said that unless you have not sinned then only god can judge him and we should stay out of it and just forgive him and mind our business. cause it was so long ago. and the "christian family dealt with it" now see i stayed silent. but i need to say something. I CALL BULLSHIT. i call it because with that one statement i no longer trust the safety of my child around anyone of those that spoke that. I no longer trust the safety of the children in your own family's because for those that have been molested and or have family that has been. and to say well he asked god to forgive him and the kids was asleep so they didn't know it happened so its OK. and that is between him and god. yeah Chasity belt on the children for their protection from the family please. and bullshit card thrown down. and anything you have said in praise of my survival of the bad things anything you have said in support of me being a survivor. is worth a grain of salt now. because its tainted. true colors are shown.
the race cards being thrown all over the place. the riots, the cops did this, the black people did that. the white people did that. she said she was black but her parents are white, this bullshit is up there were the damn fight over the fact that Cheerios put a mixed kid with interracial parents on there commercial. at some point society has to grow the fuck up. sorry bite my ass and get off my page if you don't like what i say. and i would suggest stop reading about right now. cause it is only gonna get more blunt trust me. 
I have watched black people and white people trash the confederate flag. oddly some of them are supposedly my "Friends" its funny though cause these friends actually know that i have 3 tatts of that flag on my body. i designed the drawing for. i own a purse that my own mother bought for me that is one. i own several confederate flags. shirts, ashtrays, shot glasses and other stuff. hell at one point in my life i owned a shirt that said you wear your x and i will wear mine. and damn it if i still had that shirt i would wear it still. but i find it funny how those same friends are all. omg in a state and city were black people got shot they are still flying that flag. it terrorist. OK so now i am terrorist. seriously. 
then people smash Obama. then people smash the ones that smash Obama. lets see. you can't demand that you want respect for your choice to like the president if  you are not willing to accept that there are those that demand that they have the right to dislike him. i mean seriously get a clue. when Clinton was sitting at his desk signing papers with his intern under his desk giving him head. no one said shit. till one day the heifer came up with a disgusting dress she did not wash after wearing. i mean come on. what woman in the world. wears a dress gets Jiz on it sweat and what ever else from that day on it. and just hangs it in her closet. that is just nasty. can you imagine the hazmat that is needed to pick out a outfit. hope no friends borrow clothing from her. cause cross contamination or someones cooties, jiz, and what not may be on it. but oh nooooo some was like impeach but then it was like oh nooo his term is almost up. no one was this damn loco. but oh now everyone got a damn opinion. my opinion is simple. you don't like to see shit. unfollow it. you don't like discovering that someone is racist , or just a complete false creation of what they had said they were. unfriend them. if they give you drama block them. but above all. stop acting like your way is the only way.
and omg can we please stop all this damn drama over every single damn shit on facebook. i have teens and kids on my facebook page that are more mature than some of the adults. i am part of gamer groups and special groups that are more kind that the average friend on my friend list. 
you want to share your opinion fine. but i will share mine too. and guess what if you have not gotten a clue by now. my opinion is not a bakery style one. i don't sugar coat a damn thing. i am gonna tell you like it is. grow the fuck up. its mine for a reason. you don't like confederate flag tattoos guess what DON"T FUCKING GET ONE. you don't like confederate flags and confederate flag merchandise DON"T FUCKING BUY ANY. you don't like lesbians or gays. DON"T FUCKING BE ON>  you don't like interracial dating  guess what DON"T DATE OUT OF YOUR RACE. you don't like the fact that someone plus size wears clothing that you feel is not appropriate based on your style as a plus size girl or boy. GUESS WHAT DAMN IT DON"T PUT YOUR ASS IN IT THEN>  you don't like a fat unhealthy obese person getting a bariatric surgery. GUESS WHAT DON"T FUCKING GET ONE DUMB ASS. DO YOU SEE WERE THIS IS GOING YET. NOOOO OK LET ME HELP YOU OUT SOME MORE. CAUSE CLEARLY YOUR SLOW.   you don't like rednecks. DON'T BE ONE. you don't like people that cheat. the DON"T CHEAT AND DON"T BE OR STAY WITH ONE THAT DOES. you don't like crazy people. (OK now pay attention to this one really good) YOU DON'T LIKE CRAZY PEOPLE..WELL YOUR JUST SCREWED AS FUCK. SERIOUSLY IF YOU ARE READING THIS. THEN WELL YOU ALREADY KNOW A CRAZY PERSON. SO WTF YOU MEAN YOU DON'T LIKE CRAZY PEOPLE. WHY YOU ON MY DAMN FRIEND LIST IF YOU DON'T LIKE CRAZY PEOPLE SERIOUSLY. SOCIETY HAS CHANGED. CRAZY IS THE NEW NORMAL. GET OVER IT DAMN IT.
now with all this said i say this and i say this to be as honest as i can. NO MATTER WHAT OR WHO A PERSON IS. NO MATTER IF THEY ARE BLACK OR WHITE. A RAPPER OR A COUNTRY STAR OR A METAL OR OPERA OR WHAT EVER. NO ONE AND I MEAN NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO TAKE SOMEONES LIFE JUST CAUSE YOU THINK THEY ARE NOT WORTH BEING ON THIS EARTH. YOU ARE NOT THE HIGHER BEING. THE MOST YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO DO IS UNFRIEND , DELETE AND BLOCK AND MOVE ON. AND TO ALL THOSE THAT  HAVE SHOWED MORE SIDES OF YOU THAN A CHEAP MADE PORN LEFT IN THE BARGAIN BIN. SLAP A CLEARANCE SIGN WITH DEFECTIVE ON YOUR ASS AND MOVE ON. CAUSE THERE IS SERIOUSLY SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU.
I WOULD RATHER HAVE THE FRIENDS ON MY FRIEND LIST THAT HAVE NEVER DENIED WHAT THEY DO AND DON'T LIKE. WHO REMAINED MY FRIEND EVEN WHEN THE MUTUAL FRIENDS WE HAD NO LONGER WAS MY FRIEND. WHO STILL JUST LIKED ME FOR ME. THE CRAZY BITCH. I WOULD RATHER HAVE THE WITCH ON MY FRIEND LIST THAT EVEN THOUGH YEARS AGO SOMEONE PROVED SHE SPOKE ILL OF ME WE FACED IT, WE HEALED AND WE ARE STRONGER NOW THAN EVER BEFORE. I WOULD RATHER HAVE THAT BLACK FRIEND THAT SEES MY CONFEDERATE FLAG TATTOOS AND SAYS DIXIE I  WOULD NOT GET ONE OF THOSE MYSELF. AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU HAVE THEM. BUT IT LOOKS COOL AT LEAST DESIGN WISE. AND HONESTLY YOU GOTTA HAVE REAL GUTS TO WEAR THAT KNOWING WHAT PEOPLE WILL SAY TO YOU FROM BOTH RACE STAND POINTS.  i WOULD RATHER HAVE THAT FRIEND THAT SAYS, YES I AM LESBIAN, OR YES I AM GAY. YES I AM GONNA STAND UP FOR MY RIGHTS AND FOR ALL PEOPLES RIGHTS. SO GET USE TO IT. I WOULD RATHER HAVE THAT FRIEND THAT ACCEPTS THAT I HAVE A HUSBAND AND I AM BI AND A DOMINATRIX AND DOES NOT GIVE A SHIT BECAUSE ALL THEY CARE ABOUT IS THAT MY SON IS HAPPY AND SAFE AND THEY KNOW HE IS. 
IN OTHER WORDS. I WOULD RATHER HAVE THE HONEST ONES IN MY LIFE ANY DAY. THAN THOSE THAT HAVE SHOWN THE BAD SECRET SIDE OF THEMSELVES LATELY. AND IF THIS OFFENDS ANY OF YOU. GET THE SAM FUCKING HELL OFF MY FACEBOOK PAGE. CAUSE TRUST AND BELIEVE. NOT WORTH THE BUTTER ON MY BISCUIT OR THE PROTEIN IN MY SHAKE OR THE MONEY IT COST FOR THE STRESS MEDS. 

BLESSED BE AND I RISE ABOVE IT ALL

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