He will never understand....

He will never understand, how pain can flood a heart. He may never understand how sorrow last and never parts. how on the outside a smile can be show. but in the inside your in the storm wasting away alone. Every small thing that is done will be micro watched to a tee. to protect what is left of the person that use to be me. to others she seemed so strong and so happy. but her soul hurts everyday for the sorrow hurts worst than a slap you see. so you see he will never understand..how the simple things he does..raises suspicion when there is no need. all because of he past. how multi locks chime around her, when she hides nothing.
He will never understand what all she has lost and sacrificed for him. just to keep him in her life. only to have him return and cut her with the proverbial knife. while she lost everything he gained so much. was given gifts and tokens to make his stay more bearable. her life was ripped apart. her home was placed in danger. the food was pulled from her mouth. the money to pay bills gone. all that she had was taken from her. now each day she must look at him and know that she may have gained him. but she lost all she had in the process and will never ever be repaid for it. and that he does not care what she lost. he only is pleased he has his gadgets and free stuff.
the tears fall down her face. the vomit falls from her mouth, the strength she used to fight for him all gone. who she once was. is dead. and she does not wish to be any more. cause she never did anything wrong. yet she was the one in the end that was punished in some way. sorrow hurts. an he will never understand.

blessed be